Lot

Lottie Elizabeth Wall was born on October 7th 2001. Her favorite color is pink. Her favorite food is pumpkin cheesecake frosting. She likes crocs, Barney, and Elmo. She loves water, hugging, and Eskimo kisses. Lottie was never supposed to walk, yet alone walk with crocs on. She was never supposed to go off her feeding tube, yet alone eat pumpkin cheesecake frosting. And she was never supposed to hug me, because Lottie wasn't supposed to live. 

There are many memories that I don't and will never had. I never held my sister until she was 1 month old. I never was able to take her and see my room, her O2 tubes didn't stretch that far. I never did all the things that I was promised that I would do. But as I think back on it, I mean all of the things that I "missed out on," I wouldn't change anything about the events for the world. I have a sister who truly will love me until the day she dies. She has no concept of hate. She is purely innocent. She is a person that I will and would do anything to protect from anything that might hurt her. 

I wake up day by day wishing I could do more with her, spend more time. But time goes by, she gets bigger, and grows farther away from needing me everyday. But I will always love her, and she will always be more than a miracle in my family and my life. I am a lucky person to be so blessed with Lottie. And I hope that through these pictures you can see, that she was supposed to die, and today she greets me at the door and say, " Hi Emma how are you?"  And that is better than any memory that I was told that I would create.